First of all, I want to express how excited I am for our autumn Korea trip this weekend. Been saving up and planning this trip since February, and now that we're three days away from our honeymoon part 2, I can't hide how elated I am knowing that I will delete one item in my growing bucket list. (which I plan to post again after this entry)
So, what's new? I am still in my TTC journey, but I have decided not to be that pressured like before, because, there's no point of stressing myself in something which I know will come on the right time. As a newly-wed couple (we're three months away from our first wedding anniversary so I still consider that as new, right?:P), we're still on our journey to save up for our own house and our future. I was trained to be independent, I always work hard for everything that I have right now. Believe it or not, I didn't have any jewelries before my engagement ring. Sure, my parents have their businesses, but I chose not to associate myself on what they have. So with the help of my ever frugal husband, we are saving up for our own little abode. It is also our mutual decision not to live with either of our families, because we are both raised to be on our own ever since.
Before marriage, our original plan is to try to have a baby a year after our wedding. Because it is a mutual decision to enjoy our time together before our little bundle of joy. But then the condition that I have right now made it difficult to proceed as planned, so as early as last month, I had my OB check up done. And now, we are exhausting our means to conceive. I can feel the pressure, from my family, friends, and everybody else except my husband. He had been very understanding and supportive. Now, I came to a realization that maybe, God is giving us enough time to enjoy as a couple before giving us our child. I still get to travel (which is one of my favorite things to do), shop for myself, and go out with my friends until the wee hours of the day. I still get to enjoy watching a movie with my husband whenever I want to.
I just want to share our most recent photo (excuse my haggard feslak) to remind me that I am still fortunate to have the luxury of time to share with my husband alone. We are fans of cheap thrills and inexpensive dinners, and last night, we we're able to spend time again together. We had a massage and cheap (yet yummy) dinner after. I know everything will change when God grants our wish, so instead of being too hard on myself, I will enjoy our time together and thank God for the most precious gift of time. :)