Worst Nightmare.

Yesterday, I had the most tiring day of my pregnancy life. We had an exhibit/selling event for Pilipinas Shell. I was entertaining a lot of buyers and I had been standing and going around the whole day. I can feel some flicking pain in my tummy (I feel that before, doctor said that's fine and I'm so sorry if I didn't get the scientific explanation) and when I feel that, I rest. I keep on telling my little bacon that he/she should hold on, and that I am doing this for him/her. And then I rested the whole afternoon and surprisingly, I didn't feel any flicking pain already. My bacon is such a good boy/girl (not really sure if the baby is a he or a she :P) And then I was dead tired last night that I slept on our way home.

I woke up in the middle of the night to pee (my story since day 1 of pregnancy), and slept again. And here's the horrible story. I dreamt of having blood in my legs, like I am profusely bleeding. And then I went to the bathroom and felt something came out, and when I looked at it, it's my baby. I woke up and realized it's just a dream. I was so worried that I want to wake my husband up, but he's snoring and I know he's peacefully sleeping so I didn't bother. I saw my growing belly and thank God everything is okay. And then I prayed. Maybe this is because I got so tired the whole day and I got worried that something wrong might happen. The OB said I should take Duvadilan if necessary and I will be an obedient patient. Everything for the baby!

And now, since I have decided that I will avoid all the negative things about pregnancy, I will take my dream as a reminder that I should take good care of myself and the baby. :) I still thank God that it's just a dream, and that I know that my baby is in perfect condition. :) and yes, I always pray. :)

PS. I'm on my 12th week today, so that means I'm just a week away from my second trimester!;) can't wait. xx



much love,

two weeks to go!

Hello! I just want to share some happy news about my pregnancy journey today. :) So happy to announce that I'm two weeks away from my second trimester!:) I'm 12 weeks and 1 day today!:) I'm just happy that my "weeksary" falls on a Sunday. I have something to look forward to other than my usual rest day from work. :)

So I've been trying so hard to look at my best now that my body is too busy taking care of my baby. I feel guilty that sometimes I get to smell gasoline, pollution and second hand smoke! But I avoid them as much as possible. If I can only stay in our room the whole day! Plus, I also feel guilty having "cheat days" when I eat chips. So what I do is to sort of "negotiate." Every time I eat chips (which is very occasional of course), I eat fruits and veggies! So now I am training myself to eat healthy! So far green mangoes, strawberries and melon are on top of my list. I also have occasional stories of nausea and vomiting, and because of this, I consider myself really blessed. I did not experience the extreme pains of morning sickness.

Now I want to share my first ever preggy photo. I am not sure if this bump is because of the baby, or maybe it's because of my fats. :P nevertheless, my OB told me everything is normal, so kebs if I already have a baby bump as early as now! Busog lusog talaga! I'm not gaining any weight at all, as in from my first month up to now, I still have the same weight! I am looking forward to maintain my weight until my last trimester. :P (fingers crossed)

I consider this dress my favorite preggy dress. So I am planning to take photos using this dress every week to see my growing tummy. :)

much love,

Baby Bacon!

Hi everyone! I am writing some positive vibes today. :)

I must admit that lately (because of reading several forums) I've been a bit paranoid about my baby. I had lower back pains and on-off morning sickness and since I am a first time mom, I have no idea if that's fine. I am waiting for Feb. 17 to come, because that will be my third pre-natal check up. My husband assured me that I have nothing to worry about. But blame it on the hormones, I sometimes want to go inside my tummy just to be sure that my bacon is fine. It's my 11th week and 3rd day today. Two more weeks and I'm done with the very challenging first trimester. I still consider myself lucky that I didn't get extreme morning sickness. I seldom vomit and feel nauseous. I am always craving for something. (Sometimes I really don't know what I am craving for.) And yes, I am always short-tempered! I get mad easily when I am in our office. (Hormones again, eh?) But the most important thing that pregnancy made me? It helped me realize that I am so blessed to have a very optimistic and caring husband that I have nothing more to ask for. Even John noticed that I had been extra clingy and touchy since I got pregnant. I love to smell his neck and his skin. I hug him most of the time. (I don't hug him before, he's the one who's always hugging me.) Although, I don't want to smell his perfume, so when we're together I always stop him from spraying.

Let me first share why I call our baby "bacon".
I know it's weird, but I think it's cute!:P It's like an epiphany, that the other day, it just came to me that I want to name my baby... BACON! Don't panic, that will be the baby's nickname, I will never register it on the baby's birth certificate! :) A lot of people are objecting (especially my husband), but my best friend is supporting me all the way and that's enough for me! LOL! Now we're calling the baby bacon. :P

Back to my prenatal check up story. hehe :P

So I went to Marikina yesterday for my check up. (I know it's far from here, but I decided to transfer to John's aunt for our peace of mind.) So kebs if I'm driving from Bulacan to Marikina. Sadly, John just got accepted to work the other week so he can't file a leave to accompany me to the doctor. Thank good heavens that my bestfriend is there to the rescue! She said she's free yesterday and I asked her if she can be bacon's dad yesterday. We ate at UP, I let her try Rodics. And then we went to St. Vincent after. To my surprise, my OB isn't there. The secretary said she's out of town and I just want to break down and cry! LOL. But! That's not the end of the story yet. I have sent a message to Tita Nida asking for another schedule with her, and she said she's on her way to the clinic! God is good!:) So we waited for her to arrive. And then we used a doppler and checked if we can hear baby bacon's heartbeat. Before doing that, she had a disclaimer that usually, a baby's heartbeat can be heard starting the 12th week of pregnancy. So she said I shouldn't worry. But to my surprise... Our baby let us hear his/her heart beating! It sounded like a tired dog gasping for air! 140-160 BPM according to my OB. I just couldn't contain my happiness hearing it for the first time! Goodbye worries, my baby is okay! :)

Now my every day goal is to get rid of everything that makes me feel upset. (I have been kinda sad lately) I will always keep the baby's sake my first priority. :)

much love,

Happy Hearts!

Hello everyone! I know it's late but I hope everyone had a lovely hearts day. Don't feel bad if you're single! Independence must be celebrated! There's nothing to be ashamed of not having romantic dates every 14th of February, okay? (See, I'm still and will always be an advocate of single ladies out there.)

Anyway, I must say we didn't have a lavish valentines day celebration this year. Well, one obvious reason is that we are saving up for our little bacon (will tell you why bacon in my next entries) and another is that I had been short-tempered lately. (Hormones!)

Side story: So last Saturday morning, I woke up seeing my husband cleaning the house. He asked me if I can cook chicken noodles since he's hungry. And then I told him I want to put eggs, so I asked him to buy eggs from the convenient store near our house. And he said he's still fixing our things. And then I got mad and didn't talk to him the whole day!:P (talk about hormonal preggo topak days!:P) And then something came up and I can't tell him because of my pride. And then after work, he said I should prepare because we'll have dinner. And I said I'm not hungry (lie!) and I don't want to go out. He said I can eat salad. When he arrived, he has flowers for me! (told him not to buy me anything---this is sincere! but he insisted.)

And then I told him what happened that day. I was crying and telling him I couldn't tell the story to anyone because he's the only person who can understand everything that I am going through. He is telling me I shouldn't feel really bad because it will be bad for the baby. And then I felt better after I told him what happened. As always, he had been very supportive. 

We had a short dinner after. Nothing fancy but just the way we both want it to be. Too bad I am feeling nauseous that night that I was not able to eat well.

The best part of my day still is realizing that I will always have my husband to support me. I know there are a lot of nega vibes outside our relationship, but having him around makes everything bearable.

much love,

The One that Got Away.

I came across this article in a forum online. I just wanted to share, as I know that in one way or the other, people can relate to. 
Now that I am married (and expecting), I could not help but to accept the reality of life, that ending up with someone is not just about finding the right person. It is also about being in the right time. We might have met the perfect (or at least we thought we had) person along the way, and somewhere between the sweet kisses and tight hugs is a painful goodbye. 


THE ONE THAT GOT AWAY

Source: The Manila Times
By: Mark J. Macapagal

In your life, you’ll make note of a lot of people. Ones with whom you shared something special, ones who will always mean something. There’s the one you first kissed, the one you first loved, the one you lost your virginity to, the one you put on a pedestal, the one you’re with…and the one that got away.

Who is the one that got away? I guess it’s that person with who everything was great, everything was perfect, but the timing was just wrong. There was no fault in the person, there was no flaw in the chemistry, but the cards just didn’t fall the right way, I suppose. 

I believe in the fact that ending up with someone, finding a longtime partner that is, does not lie merely in the other person. I can actually argue that an equal part, or maybe even the greater part, has to do with the matter of timing. It has to do with you being ready to settle down and commit to someone in a way that goes beyond the little niceties of giddy romance.

How often have you gone through it without even realizing it? When you’re not ready to commit in that mature manner, it doesn’t matter who you’re with, it just doesn’t work. Small problems become big; inconsequentials become dealbreakers simply because you’re not ready and it shows. It’s not that you and the person you’re with are no good; it’s just that it’s not yet right, and little things become the flashpoint of that fact.

Then one day you’re ready. You really are. And when this happens you’ll be ready to settle down with someone. He or she may not be the most perfect, they might not be the brightest star of romance to ever have burned in your life, but it’ll work because you’re ready. It’ll work because it’s the right time and you’ll make it work. And it’ll make sense, it really will.

So that day comes when you’re finally making sense of things, and you find yourself to be a different person. Things are different, your approach is different, you finally understand who you are and what you want, and you’ve become ready because the time has truly arrived. And mind you, there’s no telling when this day will come. Hopefully you’re single but you could be in a long-term relationship, you could be married with three kids, it doesn’t matter.

All you know is that you’ve changed, and for some reason, the one that got away, is the first person you think about.

You’ll think about them because you’ll wonder, "What if they were here today?" You’ll wonder, "What if we were together now, with me as I am and not as I was?". That’s what the one that got away is. The biggest "What if?" you’ll have in your life. 

If you’re married, you’ll just have to accept the fact that the one that got away, got away. Believe me, nomatter how fairy tale you think your marriage is, this can happen to the best of us. But hopefully you’re mature enough to realize that you’re already with the one you’re with and this is just another test of your commitment, one which will just strengthen your marriage when you get past it. Sure, you’ll think about him/her every so often, but it’s alright. It’s never nice to live with a "might have been," but it happens.

Maybe the one that got away is the one who’s already married. In which case it’s the same thing. You just have to accept and know that your memories of that person will probably bring a nice little smile to your lips in the future when you’re old and gray and reminiscing. But if neither of that is the case, then it’s different. What do you do if it’s not yet too late? Simple…find him, find her. Because the very existence of a "one that got away" means that you’ll always wonder, what if you got that one?

Ask him out to coffee, ask her out to a movie, it doesn’t matter if you’ve dropped in from out of nowhere. You’d be surprised, you just might be "the one that got away" as well for the person who is your "the one that got away."

You might drop in from out of nowhere and it won’t make a difference.

If the timing is finally right, it’ll all just fall into place somehow and you know, I’m thinking, it would be a great feeling in the end, to be able to say to someone, "Hey you, you’re the one that almost got away." =)

A not-so-secret love affair.

I am surprised how people remembers me if they see green mangoes in the street. Ganun pala talaga ako kahilig sa manggang hilaw! I remember before that I almost got hospitalized because of the shrimp paste that I got with my mangoes. Sa baba ng MRT!:P And that is because I have a not-so-secret love affair with green mangoes. (Kala nyo kung ano noh?) And now that I'm preggers, I think we had a deeper relationship. I go gaga for green mangoes! Yesterday, I even went down the bus when I saw someone selling! The proof? 

These are just some! I eat green mangoes almost everyday! Sobrang addict ko lang! Wala lang, I just want to share!:) I am a happy preggers when I see my love (aside from my husband lol), green mangoes! :P

much love,