I'm not sleeping with him.

How intriguing the title! :D hahaha, last Tuesday, my sister tagged me and my guy best friend in a photo which says "My best friend is a guy and I'm not sleeping with him." So para medyo intriguing, yan nilagay ko. :P Since I am filled with chikas and all nowadays. So anyway, I remember posting something about Manuel long time ago. That I'd rather settle for something permanent than something that I might lose along the way.

How I wish I can share something that had happened a couple of days ago. But to make the long story short, I came to realize that there are just some people who are meant to push you to your limits. And the best response? The art of deadma. Manuel and I had been friends since high school. Apart from my husband, I consider him to be my bestest guy friend, just because we have this "platonic special connection" which we both know will stay forever. (naks!) So last Tuesday, our friendship was put into test, by someone who is really clueless of what had REALLY happened. Some people are putting malicious levels on us. I want to laugh hard, just because that is not true! Not at all. In fact, we had this conversation about "kahit maghubad ka sa harap ko, di kita papatulan!" And it's mutual! I tell him everything about me, and he does the same! That is why I wonder why people are just too malicious to think that there is "something" happening between us. FYI, I am married. And cheating with my husband is really not my cup of tea. I mean, yes, Manuel and I go out, oftentimes we eat out and have coffee alone, and we'd rather have it that way (just because there are some issues that he's not comfortable to share to anybody else except ME.). And I can't see anything wrong with that!

So just to pacify the issue, I, no scrap that, we decided to keep things on ourselves and just see people bury themselves to negative vibes. All I know is that I got my guy bestfriend no matter what. :)

To add good vibes, I'm sharing some of our fancy pictures over the years. ;)

I just hope everyone will find someone like Manuel in their life. Someone who will be your friend for the rest of your life, no matter what. I am just so blessed to have a guy bestfriend in him. And yes, I am not sleeping with my bestfriend. ;)

much love,

Korean Escapade. Day 1-arrival

Ola! I know I should have posted this long time ago, but because my husband is too lazy to convert our pictures from raw to .jpeg, I had a hard time uploading them. Anyway, let me divide it into a day by day fun holiday, since I want to share as much as I can and having it in one entry might be too boring.=P

Just a short intro: Our original plan is to have our honeymoon in Japan, but unfortunately, there are no sale flights available. Second option, Korea! We got our tickets for 14,5++ for two, and according to my friends, the price is just reasonable. We also planned to see cherry blossoms, but we prioritized the expenses of our wedding so we just had autumn instead.

On the day of our departure, we went to Trinoma just to have our peso changed into won, but to our luck, they don't have any won available! I was hesitant to change it to dollar so we just tried our luck in Korea. Thank goodness that my mother gave us some dollars, that helped us a lot!

Tried Cebupac's onboard meals, I ordered Kaldereta! It's soooo good! :) Oh and on our way to Korea, my husband had a small talk with his seatmate Mr. Choi, and guess what, he joined us in one of our day tours! (will tell more about that in my next entries)

 Hello Korea! This is how I looked like when we arrived at the airport. It's cold outside!! (that explains the scarf) My hello kitty luggage says hi! =P

 

It's a four hour flight so we got hungry. We arrived at the airport at around 8 or 9 in the evening. Plus we have to travel from Incheon to Seoul for an hour so we decided to eat after we dropped our things in our hotel. And since we do not have an idea on where and what to eat, we had spicy korean noodles from 711! Mine tasted better than John's this time! We tried to walk around the streets of Myeongdong but we're too tired so we went back to our hotel after 20 minutes.

Past. Present.

Pardon this mushy cheeseballs post, I just feel romantic and thankful today, and I want to share it to everyone. :)
I am a big fan of timehop app, because I want to know what happened to me few years back. So this morning, this is what surprised me.

This happened three years ago, when he put a drum of vetsin in my food and I fell inlove with this weirdo. I am a huge fan of happily ever after before a storm came and shattered everything into small pieces. But then again, when I learned things the hard way, I became whole again. And right after that, he happened. The extremely makulit guy who asked for my number in exchange of a twenty-peso Mcdonalds meal is now the first person I see when I open my eyes every morning. It amazes me really, how fate leads you to somewhere. You'll just know, that's where you should be.

And then here's what happened last night. In the middle of waiting for our food and stories of friends, he kissed me. He always does, I am showered with "ang ganda ganda ng asawa ko" every now and then. Something like "ang swerte ko ikaw napangasawa ko." Who would not love hearing those things? Apart from the love, it is the appreciation that mattered most to me. In my entire life, I have always been trying to be on top. From family, to ex-lovers, friends. But now, I have the crown. hahaha! And nothing feels better than having someone to share your completeness with. He's my husband, my bestfriend and my life. (OA na sa kakesohan to!)

Just sharing!xx

That thing Called Tadhana.

I cannot not post anything about this movie! Okay, before sharing my thoughts about the movie, let me share my little adventure just to make it to the last screening.

My friend Michael sent me the movie poster last week. I said okay, we will watch the film, because I am a die hard fan of Filipino movies, not to mention that we have this somehow tradition of films like this every year. Anyway, I didn't realize that they will only be showing this until Monday! And since the movie won the Audience Choice Award, they had another showing day (which was last Tuesday) So I told Michael that I can never miss this, because of positive feedbacks of random people online. Our initial plan is to watch it in Greenhills. Screening time, 5 PM. Can't. Next option, 7 PM, Glorietta. Tickets sold out. Last option... FAIRVIEW TERRACES! 7:10. Where's Fairview again? I cannot remember the last time I went to Fairview. All I know is that there's a way somewhere from Sta. Maria Bulacan to Fairview via San Jose. Okay, the adventure starts here. I trusted Waze with all that I am, and it's all that I have so I have no choice. Haha. I kept on driving... and driving.. To make everything more exciting, my car's aircon is not working so I have to open my windows. Ang ineeet! But after an hour of driving... I arrived in Fairview Terraces at around 6:30! Yipee! I rushed into the ticket booth and bought our tickets. Michael said he'll be coming late so I have some alone time in the cinema again.

Okay, now the movie. What can I say about it? It's one light, HUGOT (with emphasis on hugot), funny and a movie full of lessons for you know, tatanga tanga people in love. :P I can relate to Mace character, because of her thing for One More Chance, sacrifices, and hope in love. I was once a Mace, who gave her everything just to win back the man of his life. But just like her too, I was led to my "tadhana" now. I was once singing "where do broken hearts go" in videoke, night after the break-up. And thanks to my friends who sang with me that night. I was one broken soul, who wanted to see the world. Someone who remembered everything about the ex. Oh Mace, love na love na talaga kita. :) I fell in love with the way Angelica portrayed Mace's character. It is as if she had this "been there done that" slate. She's helpless, but she's strong and determined to move on. As for JM de Guzman, oh my JM, I didn't realize how good looking he is until this movie. Ang sarap nyang i-hug! I also love his character. He's really perfect for Mace. 

And what's my favorite part of the movie? The Sagada scene where Mace let it all out. I saw myself in her! That was full of emotions, and heartaches, pain, everything! That hurts. So much. No wonder she won the best actress award. And I bet a lot of people can relate to how Mace handled pain. 

As what I've heard, they are trying their best to show the movie again due to insistent public demand. My best friend is one of those who are dying to see it and of course, I will watch it again, this time with her. :) We're keeping our fingers crossed.

New Ob. New Hope. :)

I've been really thinking of the decision of having another ob gyne to help us in our ttc journey. Given my condition, I cannot just rely on pure luck to conceive. I still say that this is a blessing, because we are able to plan our next steps in our married life. Our previous ob had been very kind and patient with me. (I always forget the last day of my period and the last time we had bd) But then during my last visit, I suddenly feel like she is losing her hope in us, so that convinced me to try my luck this time.
After some research, I've came across a certain Dra. Aguilar. I've read a lot of successful ttc stories about her, plus her PF is reasonable, so we decided to try. Yesterday, I asked my mother/boss if I can leave the office early for our check up. I went to P. Faura with my ever supportive husband. We looked for Healthpoint clinic and  to our surprise, she is no longer having consultations in that clinic. The receptionist told us that she is having her clinic in FMAB. (What FMAB?) So we looked for that clinic only to find out that it is inside PGH. When we arrived, someone told us that she might no longer accommodate us because she is in a hurry. I told them we are willing to wait as we came from Bulacan and it will just be a waste of time in case. And thank good heavens, she agreed to have our first consultation with her!:)
I've discussed my case with her. After some questions, she asked me to undergo some bloody PAINFUL tests to determine the problem. I've been scared of needles and blood extractions, but for our future baby, I will do everything! My husband will also undergo sperm analysis, just to be sure. I am really thankful to have a very cooperative, supportive and loving husband of all time. hahaha. His constant reminder? "Wag kang mastress." Dra. Aguilar said I am too young to worry and she promised to do everything that she can for me to conceive. Now I am more inspired to take folic acid vits and be healthy for the sake of our future baby.

I will be updates of our ttc journey regularly. (Hopefully a BFP anytime soon!xx)

Here's her details, just in case anyone might be interested.:)

It's not really a bad thing after all.

I have been a huge fan of stories about infidelity and cheating. As a victim, no let me change that, as a hero who experienced such, I have listed down some important things to keep in mind, that MIGHT help you build yourself again. (when sleepless nights and tears are over.)

1. You don't have to blame yourself.
Ever heard yourself saying "ano bang ginawa ko bakit mo ko pinagpalit sa iba?? Am I not good enough for you?"
Then goes guilt, resentment and self-pity. You feel really insecure about yourself. The girl he's with now is prettier, more popular or more established than you. You look at the mirror checking those dark spots and blemishes, and you realize, pangit ko na talaga siguro kaya nya ako iniwan. You will regret calling him several times a day, because you think you are too clingy and he doesn't like that.

Well, to answer the question, none. nada. waley boom boom lei. And no, you are not, and will never be good enough for someone, who is really not meant for you. So stop asking yourself. Because I'm telling you, you are the best person to the man who is for you.


2. It's okay not to be okay.
Feeling the urge to call your friends for beer and some "how do you heal a broken heart" videoke session? Do it. Call your friends and take all the alcohol. Get drunk. Feel like crying every night before you sleep. Bury yourself into tears and cry. Been dying to shop but your boyfriend oops, ex-boyfriend told you not to do so? Do it now! Call your bff and splurge. Release the inner Basha within you and cut your hair! Have a fabulous make over.

You are not okay, indeed, in the process of moving on, you will never be. It's fine, being hurt, and yes, devastated is indeed a negative feeling, but be sure, be pretty sure that you'll build a bridge and get over it.


3. Everything happens for a reason.
This might sound a cliche. And yes, it is a cliche. When I got my heart broken and my best friend tells me this, all I can think about is "then what the hell is the reason??" Bakit ang tagal i-reveal ng universe kung bakit nangyayari to?! But when your heart is broken, you will never understand anything. Not even the most gentle reminder of people around you.

Don't be too hard on yourself. Let time reveal the reason why it happened. In God's time, you will know.  In His time, you will understand.


4. One day it will all be worth it.
Yes it hurts. All those walling in white lingerie in the shower; the bucket of popcorn while watching One More Chance every single day; tearing all the love letters that he gave you; going through the places where you had your firsts; and just feeling the pain. Nobody can ever understand and feel the pain you've been through. Just yourself.

And when these things are no longer familiar to you, you look at yourself and the mirror and feel good about what you see, you will realize, all those dramas are worth it. You may have learned your lessons the hard way, but nothing worth having comes easy, right?



5. It's not really a bad thing after all.
Okay drumroll please. This is the hardest thing of all. How come being in the losing end (as you may think, but no, you are not!), being cheated on, being left behind, and feeling really bad about yourself is not bad?!

Look into the bigger picture. It didn't happen because it will never gonna happen. You are no longer together because you are really not meant to be together. And apart from all the misery that this heartbreak had caused you, you are a better person. It all helped you to accept the good things and the not-so-good things about yourself. You get to start anew, bury all the grudges and just have a clean slate. You should feel fortunate, because not everyone gets the chance to start all over again.


If you're still in the process of moving on, it may be hard to accept everything that I have listed. But hopefully, when the right time comes, when the right person finally comes along, you will never think of the pain the wrong love had caused you. Simply because it led you to the right one. :)

much love,

.Sweet November.

Pardon me for not posting our entire Korea trip, my husband is still in busy mode, and our raw photos are still raw, (meaning, I cannot even browse them on his laptop) and his photos are better than mine (since I only used my phone to take our pictures) so I decided to wait for it before sharing our story to everyone. :)

Yesterday was our 10th month anniversary of being a married couple. As I grow older, I am becoming less of a fan of monthsaries. (Don't get me wrong, I still want to celebrate) but because of other priorities, we'd rather not make a big fuss about it. Anyway, yesterday, it's a miracle that my husband remembered. I always make "tampo" when he forgets, but when I do, he can't get mad! :P hehehe. Anyway, we decided to celebrate a bit last night. We're too lazy to go to Manila to look for a decent resto, so we decided to go to SM Marilao instead. (naks SM Marilao!hahaha) But it's too traffic so John looked for an alternate route. Then we passed by this restaurant somewhere in Bocaue. Wakamatsu Yakiniku. We heard a lot about it, so last night, we decided to give it a try.

It is an eat all you can Japanese restaurant. 419/pax, not bad! :) and I must say that it's good! My favorite is the mixed salpicao! (Big fan of salpicao here) Their maki is good as well. John tried the beef tongue and he said that it's also good. :) I forgot to take pictures of our food because I am too hungry that night to do that. :P

And after our dinner, we decided, no, scrap that, I decided to go to Starbucks because of Toffee Nut!:) Yaay for my fave drink! Not really a fan of their planners, but I love Toffee Nut! So we had some well-deserved quality time for each other. 

And, let me take this chance to be cheesy and all. To my husband, who has been very supportive in all my decisions (big or small), my absorber of all of my topaks, my best friend, my adventure buddy, and my love... Thank you for the ten blissful months of marriage. I will always believe in you. I love you!!

much love,

Pepsico Love.

Once upon a time a worked for an FMCG company and belonged to the best KAG team. Pepsico! :) I am really blessed to be working with these people, and even if I haven't stayed long because I need to go back to our family business, they have been really close to me. I love the whole team, they have been very helpful to me, both in work and in my personal life.

Last Monday, John and I passed by their office and to my surprise, they're talking outside the building. They said they want to visit me here in Bulacan and they did! :)

And our topic? Same same. hahaha! Oh our team used to be an all-girl team, but that's Gerbert, Hanna's instant boylet! :P he's handling the accounts that I have handled before. He quite funny too, and experienced every single thing that I've experienced. Oh boy, don't give up! :)

Anyway, just sharing that I feel so touched that they travelled from Manila to Bulacan just to see me. Sweets!:)


much love,

I'm back!

Hello everyone! I just got back from our very memorable Korea trip yesterday with my husband and I must say that Korea is a destination to every traveler's book. I fell in love with everything in it. From food (mostly spicy), to people, and most especially the places we've been to. A week is just too short! I am still in the process of compiling all our photos 1,000+++! from my phone, to my husband's cameras. So now, I will just be sharing a few of our favorite photos. All by my hubby and his tripod. :P

Quality Time.

First of all, I want to express how excited I am for our autumn Korea trip this weekend. Been saving up and planning this trip since February, and now that we're three days away from our honeymoon part 2, I can't hide how elated I am knowing that I will delete one item in my growing bucket list. (which I plan to post again after this entry)

So, what's new? I am still in my TTC journey, but I have decided not to be that pressured like before, because, there's no point of stressing myself in something which I know will come on the right time. As a newly-wed couple (we're three months away from our first wedding anniversary so I still consider that as new, right?:P), we're still on our journey to save up for our own house and our future. I was trained to be independent, I always work hard for everything that I have right now. Believe it or not, I didn't have any jewelries before my engagement ring. Sure, my parents have their businesses, but I chose not to associate myself on what they have. So with the help of my ever frugal husband, we are saving up for our own little abode. It is also our mutual decision not to live with either of our families, because we are both raised to be on our own ever since.

Before marriage, our original plan is to try to have a baby a year after our wedding. Because it is a mutual decision to enjoy our time together before our little bundle of joy. But then the condition that I have right now made it difficult to proceed as planned, so as early as last month, I had my OB check up done. And now, we are exhausting our means to conceive. I can feel the pressure, from my family, friends, and everybody else except my husband. He had been very understanding and supportive. Now, I came to a realization that maybe, God is giving us enough time to enjoy as a couple before giving us our child. I still get to travel (which is one of my favorite things to do), shop for myself, and go out with my friends until the wee hours of the day. I still get to enjoy watching a movie with my husband whenever I want to.

I just want to share our most recent photo (excuse my haggard feslak) to remind me that I am still fortunate to have the luxury of time to share with my husband alone. We are fans of cheap thrills and inexpensive dinners, and last night, we we're able to spend time again together. We had a massage and cheap (yet yummy) dinner after. I know everything will change when God grants our wish, so instead of being too hard on myself, I will enjoy our time together and thank God for the most precious gift of time. :)

Fangirling.

Last night we had an impromptu dinner with my bestfriend, my parents, and her parents. (FYI, our mothers are the best of friends as well, so that explains the dinner :P) I am so happy that I finally convinced my parents to eat in Cerchio, because they never trusted my taste in food. I get a chance to play with Ghia's niece (who is super hyper btw), Ely! She's such a cute and smart little kid!

Believe me, this kid is super duper hyper! I have only played for her for about three hours (with Ghia) and I am totally exhausted! I was not able to eat well!

So this is our obligatory group photo, and as always, my father is not looking. 

But that's not all! While we're eating our dinner, we saw a lot of people shouting outside.. And when we checked.. It's Dingdong Dantes!! Inaki! (TGIS days, 90's kid, okay?:P) Our moms are bigger fans than we are, we waited for another three hours just to see and have our photos taken with Dingdong!

What an amazing photo! Blurred! I would like to thank my mom for this, ang labo! I wanna cry! Opportunity knocks only once! Just once! So unfair that I took a perfect photo of her with D! And my photo is just. fab. I wanna cry. *end of story*

till my next adventure! :)

much love,

Optimism required.

So lately I've been keeping myself occupied of happy thoughts just because I can no longer stand the pressure of everything that is happening around me. My husband has been telling me to keep it low and take it easy (parang kanta lang ah) because God will give us everything in His right time. Who am I to question his plans? 

He's really listening, he gave sent me this message this morning via Timehop. (techie narin si Lord!)

If you have been reading my posts, you'll know that I am diagnosed with PCOS. And I am doing everything just to have our little bundle of joy. Anyway, it's just our first cycle, and it is indeed to early to think that we failed. But believe me, it hurts me to see my husband enjoying the kids of other young couples, as if it is his own. And God knows how much I would love to have our own. But maybe, just maybe, this is not His time yet. So I should keep in mind that I should always be thankful, that I have my husband to pray with every night. I will never stop telling myself that God's time is always perfect. And that is enough for me. :)

Till my next adventure!:)

much love,

My favorite shobe! :)

I am not sure if I have posted anything about this little girl yet. She's John's niece, Kirsten. This little girl never fails to amaze me, because of her weird questions and out of this world answers to my simple wonders. Anyway, last Monday, I got the chance to bond with her. John fetched her from school because her mom is having a meeting that day. What a coincidence, we will be getting our visas that day. After we got our visas *yay* I went back to Maginhawa (where John works) and played with her. We had our little "date" in Burger Project!

She made this "card" for me. She said it's from Frozen. So sweet!

So I got her this huge serving of chili cheese fries. I heard her saying "wow!this is so yummy! It's a bit spicy, but it's awesome!" so cute!xx

I love this little girl to bits! She even asked some "intriga" questions about my past! I can't imagine a five year old kid can make me think about everything again while laughing at my misadventures!:P

 This little girl is a camwhore! She loves taking funny pictures of us, so I obliged. :) I said she's the boss today!:) And then she asked me, who is your favorite shobe? (My husband has chinese blood, that explains the "shobe") Of course I said Kirsten! And she's really happy! I didn't say that just to pacify her. She really is! :)

till my next adventure!

much love