Prayers and Positive thoughts.

First of all.. Happy New Year to everyone! :) I can only wish that 2015 will be such an amazing year for all of us! A lot of things are happening and I am feeling a roller coaster of emotions lately. Well, this is the first time that I celebrated the holidays with two families (John and mine) and it could've been better! We celebrated Christmas eve with John's family and we welcomed 2015 in our humble home with my family.

There are just some MAJOR things that I have discovered lately. Unfortunately, I cannot reveal them yet since a lot of things might happen along the way. I am feeling excited, nervous and paranoid of my condition now. And yes, ayokong ma-jinx! I can't wait to share the news to the whole world, but I just have to be sure. My plan is to post it on Sunday (our first year anniversary) but my husband said I should wait until everything is final already. :(


Please help me pray and wish me luck.

New Ob. New Hope. :)

I've been really thinking of the decision of having another ob gyne to help us in our ttc journey. Given my condition, I cannot just rely on pure luck to conceive. I still say that this is a blessing, because we are able to plan our next steps in our married life. Our previous ob had been very kind and patient with me. (I always forget the last day of my period and the last time we had bd) But then during my last visit, I suddenly feel like she is losing her hope in us, so that convinced me to try my luck this time.
After some research, I've came across a certain Dra. Aguilar. I've read a lot of successful ttc stories about her, plus her PF is reasonable, so we decided to try. Yesterday, I asked my mother/boss if I can leave the office early for our check up. I went to P. Faura with my ever supportive husband. We looked for Healthpoint clinic and  to our surprise, she is no longer having consultations in that clinic. The receptionist told us that she is having her clinic in FMAB. (What FMAB?) So we looked for that clinic only to find out that it is inside PGH. When we arrived, someone told us that she might no longer accommodate us because she is in a hurry. I told them we are willing to wait as we came from Bulacan and it will just be a waste of time in case. And thank good heavens, she agreed to have our first consultation with her!:)
I've discussed my case with her. After some questions, she asked me to undergo some bloody PAINFUL tests to determine the problem. I've been scared of needles and blood extractions, but for our future baby, I will do everything! My husband will also undergo sperm analysis, just to be sure. I am really thankful to have a very cooperative, supportive and loving husband of all time. hahaha. His constant reminder? "Wag kang mastress." Dra. Aguilar said I am too young to worry and she promised to do everything that she can for me to conceive. Now I am more inspired to take folic acid vits and be healthy for the sake of our future baby.

I will be updates of our ttc journey regularly. (Hopefully a BFP anytime soon!xx)

Here's her details, just in case anyone might be interested.:)

My TTC journey.

I have been looking for people who can understand my hopes (and some frustrations) on our journey to have our little bundle of joy. Most of my friends are already moms and single ladies with steady boyfriends. So that leaves me with no one who can relate. And I suddenly remembered... Girltalk helped me to plan my wedding! Now I searched for the right forum to share this bittersweet experience... and I found a lot of threads!

It is just fun to broaden my vocabulary, that I am now aware of "ttc", "af" and other online codes that I should be aware of when reading forum messages. Anyway, I just feel good that a lot couples can relate with the situation that I am in right now. I have also seen successful girl talkers who are already moms! And that gives me hope. :) My closest friends are also supportive in this journey that I am in, only that I chose to share my condition to my closest friends. My bestfriend (who has the same condition as mine) said she will include me in my prayers and true enough, prayer is the most powerful thing that we all can do! Another friend sent me this little image of a lactating Mama Mary. He said this is why his sister got preggers! There's nothing wrong having faith, right? So I always keep this in my bag. :)

So that's it for now, I am in my second day of Clomid today. With a lot of prayers and the help of science, hopefully I'll have our little bundle of joy soon. :)

Much love, 

Niki xx