Past. Present.

Pardon this mushy cheeseballs post, I just feel romantic and thankful today, and I want to share it to everyone. :)
I am a big fan of timehop app, because I want to know what happened to me few years back. So this morning, this is what surprised me.

This happened three years ago, when he put a drum of vetsin in my food and I fell inlove with this weirdo. I am a huge fan of happily ever after before a storm came and shattered everything into small pieces. But then again, when I learned things the hard way, I became whole again. And right after that, he happened. The extremely makulit guy who asked for my number in exchange of a twenty-peso Mcdonalds meal is now the first person I see when I open my eyes every morning. It amazes me really, how fate leads you to somewhere. You'll just know, that's where you should be.

And then here's what happened last night. In the middle of waiting for our food and stories of friends, he kissed me. He always does, I am showered with "ang ganda ganda ng asawa ko" every now and then. Something like "ang swerte ko ikaw napangasawa ko." Who would not love hearing those things? Apart from the love, it is the appreciation that mattered most to me. In my entire life, I have always been trying to be on top. From family, to ex-lovers, friends. But now, I have the crown. hahaha! And nothing feels better than having someone to share your completeness with. He's my husband, my bestfriend and my life. (OA na sa kakesohan to!)

Just sharing!xx

That thing Called Tadhana.

I cannot not post anything about this movie! Okay, before sharing my thoughts about the movie, let me share my little adventure just to make it to the last screening.

My friend Michael sent me the movie poster last week. I said okay, we will watch the film, because I am a die hard fan of Filipino movies, not to mention that we have this somehow tradition of films like this every year. Anyway, I didn't realize that they will only be showing this until Monday! And since the movie won the Audience Choice Award, they had another showing day (which was last Tuesday) So I told Michael that I can never miss this, because of positive feedbacks of random people online. Our initial plan is to watch it in Greenhills. Screening time, 5 PM. Can't. Next option, 7 PM, Glorietta. Tickets sold out. Last option... FAIRVIEW TERRACES! 7:10. Where's Fairview again? I cannot remember the last time I went to Fairview. All I know is that there's a way somewhere from Sta. Maria Bulacan to Fairview via San Jose. Okay, the adventure starts here. I trusted Waze with all that I am, and it's all that I have so I have no choice. Haha. I kept on driving... and driving.. To make everything more exciting, my car's aircon is not working so I have to open my windows. Ang ineeet! But after an hour of driving... I arrived in Fairview Terraces at around 6:30! Yipee! I rushed into the ticket booth and bought our tickets. Michael said he'll be coming late so I have some alone time in the cinema again.

Okay, now the movie. What can I say about it? It's one light, HUGOT (with emphasis on hugot), funny and a movie full of lessons for you know, tatanga tanga people in love. :P I can relate to Mace character, because of her thing for One More Chance, sacrifices, and hope in love. I was once a Mace, who gave her everything just to win back the man of his life. But just like her too, I was led to my "tadhana" now. I was once singing "where do broken hearts go" in videoke, night after the break-up. And thanks to my friends who sang with me that night. I was one broken soul, who wanted to see the world. Someone who remembered everything about the ex. Oh Mace, love na love na talaga kita. :) I fell in love with the way Angelica portrayed Mace's character. It is as if she had this "been there done that" slate. She's helpless, but she's strong and determined to move on. As for JM de Guzman, oh my JM, I didn't realize how good looking he is until this movie. Ang sarap nyang i-hug! I also love his character. He's really perfect for Mace. 

And what's my favorite part of the movie? The Sagada scene where Mace let it all out. I saw myself in her! That was full of emotions, and heartaches, pain, everything! That hurts. So much. No wonder she won the best actress award. And I bet a lot of people can relate to how Mace handled pain. 

As what I've heard, they are trying their best to show the movie again due to insistent public demand. My best friend is one of those who are dying to see it and of course, I will watch it again, this time with her. :) We're keeping our fingers crossed.

New Ob. New Hope. :)

I've been really thinking of the decision of having another ob gyne to help us in our ttc journey. Given my condition, I cannot just rely on pure luck to conceive. I still say that this is a blessing, because we are able to plan our next steps in our married life. Our previous ob had been very kind and patient with me. (I always forget the last day of my period and the last time we had bd) But then during my last visit, I suddenly feel like she is losing her hope in us, so that convinced me to try my luck this time.
After some research, I've came across a certain Dra. Aguilar. I've read a lot of successful ttc stories about her, plus her PF is reasonable, so we decided to try. Yesterday, I asked my mother/boss if I can leave the office early for our check up. I went to P. Faura with my ever supportive husband. We looked for Healthpoint clinic and  to our surprise, she is no longer having consultations in that clinic. The receptionist told us that she is having her clinic in FMAB. (What FMAB?) So we looked for that clinic only to find out that it is inside PGH. When we arrived, someone told us that she might no longer accommodate us because she is in a hurry. I told them we are willing to wait as we came from Bulacan and it will just be a waste of time in case. And thank good heavens, she agreed to have our first consultation with her!:)
I've discussed my case with her. After some questions, she asked me to undergo some bloody PAINFUL tests to determine the problem. I've been scared of needles and blood extractions, but for our future baby, I will do everything! My husband will also undergo sperm analysis, just to be sure. I am really thankful to have a very cooperative, supportive and loving husband of all time. hahaha. His constant reminder? "Wag kang mastress." Dra. Aguilar said I am too young to worry and she promised to do everything that she can for me to conceive. Now I am more inspired to take folic acid vits and be healthy for the sake of our future baby.

I will be updates of our ttc journey regularly. (Hopefully a BFP anytime soon!xx)

Here's her details, just in case anyone might be interested.:)

It's not really a bad thing after all.

I have been a huge fan of stories about infidelity and cheating. As a victim, no let me change that, as a hero who experienced such, I have listed down some important things to keep in mind, that MIGHT help you build yourself again. (when sleepless nights and tears are over.)

1. You don't have to blame yourself.
Ever heard yourself saying "ano bang ginawa ko bakit mo ko pinagpalit sa iba?? Am I not good enough for you?"
Then goes guilt, resentment and self-pity. You feel really insecure about yourself. The girl he's with now is prettier, more popular or more established than you. You look at the mirror checking those dark spots and blemishes, and you realize, pangit ko na talaga siguro kaya nya ako iniwan. You will regret calling him several times a day, because you think you are too clingy and he doesn't like that.

Well, to answer the question, none. nada. waley boom boom lei. And no, you are not, and will never be good enough for someone, who is really not meant for you. So stop asking yourself. Because I'm telling you, you are the best person to the man who is for you.


2. It's okay not to be okay.
Feeling the urge to call your friends for beer and some "how do you heal a broken heart" videoke session? Do it. Call your friends and take all the alcohol. Get drunk. Feel like crying every night before you sleep. Bury yourself into tears and cry. Been dying to shop but your boyfriend oops, ex-boyfriend told you not to do so? Do it now! Call your bff and splurge. Release the inner Basha within you and cut your hair! Have a fabulous make over.

You are not okay, indeed, in the process of moving on, you will never be. It's fine, being hurt, and yes, devastated is indeed a negative feeling, but be sure, be pretty sure that you'll build a bridge and get over it.


3. Everything happens for a reason.
This might sound a cliche. And yes, it is a cliche. When I got my heart broken and my best friend tells me this, all I can think about is "then what the hell is the reason??" Bakit ang tagal i-reveal ng universe kung bakit nangyayari to?! But when your heart is broken, you will never understand anything. Not even the most gentle reminder of people around you.

Don't be too hard on yourself. Let time reveal the reason why it happened. In God's time, you will know.  In His time, you will understand.


4. One day it will all be worth it.
Yes it hurts. All those walling in white lingerie in the shower; the bucket of popcorn while watching One More Chance every single day; tearing all the love letters that he gave you; going through the places where you had your firsts; and just feeling the pain. Nobody can ever understand and feel the pain you've been through. Just yourself.

And when these things are no longer familiar to you, you look at yourself and the mirror and feel good about what you see, you will realize, all those dramas are worth it. You may have learned your lessons the hard way, but nothing worth having comes easy, right?



5. It's not really a bad thing after all.
Okay drumroll please. This is the hardest thing of all. How come being in the losing end (as you may think, but no, you are not!), being cheated on, being left behind, and feeling really bad about yourself is not bad?!

Look into the bigger picture. It didn't happen because it will never gonna happen. You are no longer together because you are really not meant to be together. And apart from all the misery that this heartbreak had caused you, you are a better person. It all helped you to accept the good things and the not-so-good things about yourself. You get to start anew, bury all the grudges and just have a clean slate. You should feel fortunate, because not everyone gets the chance to start all over again.


If you're still in the process of moving on, it may be hard to accept everything that I have listed. But hopefully, when the right time comes, when the right person finally comes along, you will never think of the pain the wrong love had caused you. Simply because it led you to the right one. :)

much love,

.Sweet November.

Pardon me for not posting our entire Korea trip, my husband is still in busy mode, and our raw photos are still raw, (meaning, I cannot even browse them on his laptop) and his photos are better than mine (since I only used my phone to take our pictures) so I decided to wait for it before sharing our story to everyone. :)

Yesterday was our 10th month anniversary of being a married couple. As I grow older, I am becoming less of a fan of monthsaries. (Don't get me wrong, I still want to celebrate) but because of other priorities, we'd rather not make a big fuss about it. Anyway, yesterday, it's a miracle that my husband remembered. I always make "tampo" when he forgets, but when I do, he can't get mad! :P hehehe. Anyway, we decided to celebrate a bit last night. We're too lazy to go to Manila to look for a decent resto, so we decided to go to SM Marilao instead. (naks SM Marilao!hahaha) But it's too traffic so John looked for an alternate route. Then we passed by this restaurant somewhere in Bocaue. Wakamatsu Yakiniku. We heard a lot about it, so last night, we decided to give it a try.

It is an eat all you can Japanese restaurant. 419/pax, not bad! :) and I must say that it's good! My favorite is the mixed salpicao! (Big fan of salpicao here) Their maki is good as well. John tried the beef tongue and he said that it's also good. :) I forgot to take pictures of our food because I am too hungry that night to do that. :P

And after our dinner, we decided, no, scrap that, I decided to go to Starbucks because of Toffee Nut!:) Yaay for my fave drink! Not really a fan of their planners, but I love Toffee Nut! So we had some well-deserved quality time for each other. 

And, let me take this chance to be cheesy and all. To my husband, who has been very supportive in all my decisions (big or small), my absorber of all of my topaks, my best friend, my adventure buddy, and my love... Thank you for the ten blissful months of marriage. I will always believe in you. I love you!!

much love,